Happy New Year! *2013*

   HAPPY NEW YEAR! *2013* (January 1st, 2013)

Cheers to the new year! The last chapter of the book is finally done that means let's open a new chapter and start a new beginning, but better! I've got lots of new goals set for my life! I didn't make a new years resolution because I never even accomplish it anyways! Here's my plan: Pay off my title loan which is almost done. I've only got $279 left and I'm going to pay that off so it can be done and over with! I will most definitely won't do it ever again! It's a long process and it's overwhelming to keep up with the payments! Anyways, then I'm going to save up more and more money to get the heck out of my parents place because it's just not working out! There are way too many struggles that I just can't deal with anymore! They are way to strict that I just can't stand the fact my son can't do anything my parents place! We need to be out of my parents place not just because we are struggling, but because it's that time now to move on and do better things with our lives! I'm a grown mother and need to be out on my own! I do not want to live with my parents for the rest of my life! It's time now to move and be more mature about life! Then it's time to save more money cause I need a new car! It's not the fact it's not working it's just another one of those time thing again it's kind of falling apart! They are things that can be fixed, but I want a nicer car as well. I know, you guys are probably saying "Hey, at least you got a running car!" Yes, you are right on that one! I'm glad I do have a car because if I didn't have one we wouldn't be going anywhere! I would just like to update on a newer car for once! I'm also wanting to buy a laptop computer, but I'm thinking if I save up enough money that will come in between everything and then we really need some new clothes! I guess you could say I kind of have a new years resolution, but more like goals and plans for the new year! Mostly, I just need to start saving up money because someday down the road I want to go back to college! Maybe do a few online classes so I can still be home with my little man! I know that I can do this as long as I set my heart on it and push myself hard not to spend money when I don't need certain things then I know I can do it! I believe in myself that I can do anything I want to if I just set my heart on it! It's going to be a long and hard progress, but it will happen! I'm hoping that everyone was safe tonight on New Years! I can't believe it's January 1st, 2013 approximately 12:54 AM as of right now! That is crazy how fast time flies anymore because my son isn't so little anymore! He's growing way to fast, but it's okay because no matter what I will always cherish every moment!


My little man means the world to me no matter what! I love him so much with all of my heart! We may have our hard times, but no matter what I will always be there for him! I will cherish every moment we have together! He always knows how to put a smile on my face when I'm down! My little man always making me laugh cause he can be so silly! Even as soon as he wakes up he has a smile on his face! I'm ready to take brand new pictures for the new year and will definitely try to post them as soon as I can to share with everyone that still follows us!

My life story

It's been one heck of a week for my little boy! He has been sick for over a week now and I think he's finally getting better! Monday night on Christmas Even my parents took him to the emergency room while I was at work and thankfully my manager let me off early so I can be with my son! My son Jayden went in with a fever! The doctors said that he was dehydrated, bronchitis and rsv which is some sort of respiratory syncytial virus! He had his follow up with the pediactric doctor on Wednesday and his bronchitis is gone, but still has the rsv. Now he also has ear infections in both of his ears! God just needs to give my son a break! I'm tired of seeing my son sick all the time! I think they said he has a small immune system which is why he has been sick. This time though he wasn't admitted into the hospital like he was in 2011 because his oxygen was low, but this time since he's a little older his oxygen is keeping up with him! Besides with my son being sick we had a pretty good Christmas! He loved opening his presents that he didn't want to stop! He said "one more" cause he wanted to open more presents! He's so darn cute! Now he's on Christmas break and don't go back to school until January 2nd and I'm hoping he starts to feeling better by then because he loves school and riding the bus! We were thinking about taking him out of school because since he has been in school he's been sick a lot. We go to Iowa City on the 31st of December for his check up about his syndrome! I hate those long drives, but it's worth it for my son so we know that he is doing alright! His father and I are still split up which is still hard to believe! I"m hoping the year of 2013 will treat us a lot better because we could use a miracle! I can't even stand my ex best friend anymore for all the crap she has put me through! I don't want to speak to her or even see her anymore! I'm so through with our friendship that even if the do split up I won't talk to her or even be around her for what she has done to my life! She was always jealous of what I had and now she has it, but remember Karma is a bitch! My job has been doing good I have been there for almost 2 years now and I also got a raise! I am almost done with my title loan and when that is fully paid off I'm getting myself a laptop computer and hopefully finding a place to live on my own instead of with my parents! Most of the time I can't stand living with them because I'm constantly getting yelled at and they think I don't do nothing for my kid. Wrong, I do everything for my child I love my son with all of my heart! I'm hoping by next year though that his father and I will hopefully be back together soon! That would be great! Jayden keeps saying "I wanna go home," but of course that doesn't matter to his father cause yet we still aren't together! It's just so frustrating! I have to mention that I haven't start my period this month which has worried me a lot! I have had sex this month, but my tubes are tied too! It could just be stress and depression! Maybe I am worrying to much! Anyways, I guess that's enough rambling for now I'll keep updating about Jayden and when we go to Iowa City the 31st!

 

Thanksgiving Break!

First off, how was everyone's Thanksgiving break? We had our Thanksgiving at my mom's with my brother! It wasn't a big Thanksgiving it was just mediate family this year! I didn't mind that to much because when we are all together it seems like everything gets to become so overwhelming. My favorite part about Thanksgiving is spending time with family, but I can never get enough of that pumpkin pie and whip cream! Yummy! I'm pretty sure though my little boy was so bored over the break! We didn't do much, but stay home a lot because it's just too chilly outside for him! Now the day he goes back to school which was today I had to go get him about 10:30 because all he was doing was laying around! It's so weird though cause he was completely fine through all break and this morning! Even when he came home from school he was playing and running around the house! He has his check-up though Wednesday for his ears they wanted to see him back in 2 weeks he seems like he's doing better, but I can't get him to eat! Today he finally ate lunch which is really good. I don't like it when he don't eat because then I get worried. I love him way to much for anything to happen to my little punkin.' I've had tons of fun with him during Thanksgiving break! We watched movies, played, colored and made cookies too! He loves to help mommy make cookies.  He loves to make that sugar mess and he did the other day all over the floor, but he had fun.

It's always gonna be about my little man!

Jayden absolutely loved Halloween! Even after Halloween was over he still wanted to wear his costume! He kept taking it on and off non stop! It was cute, but had enough of it and put it away! We went downtown to the auditorium and Jayden got a bag full of candy! Sadly, we had to hide it because that's all he wanted to eat all day and every day! I'm sure if he could he probably would! This little boy loves his candy just like his momma does! He was so cute in his costume, but he's cute every day! I'm just happy that I took him there because at first I wasn't going to since everyone was ruining it for us! I didn't let that stop us though! We even seen friends that we knew and chatted with them for awhile which made the night even better! I'm just glad that we both had fun and we really enjoyed ourselves that night! I even treated him with McDonalds he did such a great job! He didn't run off at all, but once! Jayden is my little dare devil and started to walk down the stairs by himself! I grabbed him fast because I didn't want to lose him with all the people that was there! It was crazy! There was some pretty cool costumes there as well. Behind us was a pretty cool devil that I was surprised Jayden wasn't scared of. There was also one that had no head which was pretty cool. Next year Jayden said he wanted to be Spongbob or a Power Ranger! Those are his two favorites! Halloween was good to us this year! :)

My little man loves his Spongebob pillow! He carries it everywhere with him in the house and even sleeps with it! So cute! Jayden wasn't suppose to find it though because it was one of his Christmas presents, but I'm glad he enjoys having it because it makes him happy and that he should be! I love my little man and nobody can take him away from me! No matter what I am always there for him by his side every moment! Jayden is my pride and joy! He is whom makes me happy every day! We aren't prefect, but nobody is! He keeps me alive every day when I think about the negative! He puts a smile on my face in the morning bright and early! Jayden definately knows how to make us laugh! He's our little jokester! Jayden is also my little dare devil! He loves jumping off of everything which scares me have to death! I wouldn't let anything happen to him ever! I could never leave his side because I love him no matter what and I'm his momma and should always be there for him! Once you have a child in your hands that's a part of your life and you need to grow up and be a good parent to your child because that is what your suppose to do! If you don't want to be a good parent then you shouldn't be having any kids! I love my son no matter what because he is my miracle! God gave me the most precious gift ever!

So, I thought I just share a pretty cool picture that I took of myself a couple weeks ago! I love taking pictures! It's one of my favorite hobby's! It's a great passion to have because with pictures they don't change only the people in them change! I love this photo with the leaves and the trees behind me made it even better! I also edited my photo as well to make it a little better too because it needed some changes to it being a little blurry! I'm going to do more soon! I actually have more photos that I can share with everyone when I do my blogging! I try my best with making good stories and sometimes it actually be nice to get some feedback! I would love to have people let me know what they think! Well, that's it for now I hope you enjoy your day and spend your time with your little ones because they are important to be with! :)

I love my son Jayden and I love taking pictures :)

Hello my follow peeps! :)

   I'm really trying my best to make good stories for my bloggers, but it seems like I'm not doing a good job cause of no feedback! Anyways, Jayden is loving school he's having so much fun there! His first conference is coming up and I hope they say nothing but good things about him! It's been hard though trying to get him to take a afternoon nap! He's been taking late ones and if he does that he's cranky as heck! That means it's harder for him to go too bed by 10 and wake up in the morning! When that happens he's cranky in the morning and doesn't want to get dressed, but as soon as he sees the school he's excited! It seems like since he got his tonsils and adnoids out though that he's been sick a lot and I don't like it! It seems like one thing after another! Well, still trying to potty train this kid and it's been difficult! I really need to be sitting him on that potty more often! I can't keep affording these diapers! I'm only getting two days of work and that's pretty much it! That doesn't help at all. I do get ssi for my disiability, but most of my money goes to my 2 big bills that I have! My cell phone bill is crazy just for one person it's $92.00 and I have a title loan that I got left with $192.10 every month and that kills me right there because then I have no money at all! It's hard to keep buying diapers and wipes! I'm trying to find like another job over the internet! I was hoping that I could make good stories and could write blogs for money! That's pretty easy to do! I also see people selling avon and stuff like that, but I don't think I could be a good seller though! I need to find another thing! I've always wanted to go back to college, but I can't afford it out of my pocket! I want to become a photographer because I love taking photos! I will share a few of them with you! I'm hoping that things will still start to look up for us because we need a miracle! We need his daddy back with us again because Jayden misses him so much! I still can't believe that we are broken up from almost 4 years of being together! It's been 6th months now since all this happen and I still can't get over all of it! I'm just so heartbroken on how all this happen! Jayden loves his Halloween costume! He's going to be Iron Man this year and last night we put it on him he didn't want to take it off he was already loving it! Okay, that sums everything up I'm going to share my photos with you just like I do in every blog! Please send some feedback! :)

                                           

Random blog! :)

Yep, that's me Nicole! YAY! ^_^ Welcome!

 

Okay guys! :) Help me out here! How in the heck do I do those nice layouts like everyone else has? These simple ones are kind of dull and that's why you just recently seen a whole bunch of changes! I was trying to figure out the heading and title to change to my own graphics and such! How do you even make those? Driving me crazy! I been trying to figure it out for years and stil haven't been able too! UGH! It's so frustrating! Would any of you be generous enough to help a young lady out? Thanks!

I'm also gonna talk a little about myself because I haven't really introduced who I am! My name is Nicole & I'm 26 years of age! As you all can tell from my blog stories I'm a proud parent of a little boy whom I love dearly! He is my entire life and no matter what I will always be there for him every step of his life! I will never leave his side because that's what a mother does she stands by him every day no matter how hard life gets she's there! I'm his mother and that's what I'll be to him! I love being a mommy! Being a mommy has changed my life! I wouldn't change being a mommy no matter what because being a mommy is who I am! As being a mom taught me to grow up and be a better person! Like any other mother we could just sit here all day and talk about our children! They are so preicous to us no matter what we should always cherish the moments we have with them!

Here's more about Jayden and I like I've said in my very first blog post if you've been following me we both have velo-cardio-facial syndrome which I will give the link to you so you can understand it better than I can! Just some random facts about myself are just like any normal person! Mostly, I love the color pink, I drink a lot of Mt. Dew, I love my energy drinks, I love movies and music, I'm a huge Twilight fan and Taylor Launter! I like to read books, but I can't seem to sit down through the whole book to actually read it especially since my face is connected to the internet at the moment! I love country music, practically any kinds to like I said country, rap, hiphop, hardcore and rock! When I was little; well, I still am pretty small for my age! teehee.. I use to love Nsync I had a huge thing for Justin Timberlake! It was crazy how full my room was with those guys! I still have all 4 Nsync dolls in my closet! :) I'm addicted to Facebook! Yep, I said it I'm a facebooker! Who else here is? I love taking pictures! It's my passion! I will also share a few with you! I love to scrapbook as well it's somuch fun! I love food, but who doesn't! Around here we love pizza and tacos! I'm a huge junk food eater! I love my chocolate! It's crazy what a heartbreak can do to a hardcore junkfood eater! lol

My dislikes are: I hate when the computer starts to slow down and I lose internet right when I type a huge paragph! Like now if I lose internet I'm going to scream because this is long and I won't be able to remember what I typed! I dislike how my phone doesn't charge during the day! Like I have it charged through the whole night and then during the day bam it's DEAD! I hate being cold unless you have a snuggle buddy then your pretty lucky person! I don't like driving in the snow at all. I hate having dry skin! Ugh that irritates me! I hate being sick! OMG! I just completely suck at being sick! I hate seing my son sick too. I hate it when I'm late for something like if I'm late for work I always worry that I'm going to get into trouble since I need my job. I work at McDonald's by the way!

Well, I think that sums it up a little bit, but seriously give me feedback on how I can do those fancy layouts like everyone else does because maybe that will also help me get more comments and more views too! Thanks a bunch guys for following me all these years!

Bye! :)

It's my curly hair yo and I'm loving it guys! What do you all think of it? It's so freaking cute! I totally wish that I could have more time to do my hair like this more often because I do love it! With a child on my hands 24/7 though it's kind of hard to do! That's a part of parenting though! The picture I posted above and this picture right here are my absolute favorites that I have tooken! The picture above is my facebook profile picture! I'm just too cute! :) lol... Anyways, like I said help me with some feedback and let me know what else I can do to make my site better for my fellow viewers! I'm also wanting to do different hairstyles as well because donig the same hairstyles over and over again it's just plain! I've been looking things up on youtube, but if you girls have any suggestions let me know as well! I may even start my own hairstyle blog too. I've got my own site model blog and body fitness blog! You should all check them out and help me as well! I love the feedback if I could get some that would be fantastic! By the way I'm a huge texter! I hate when people call I don't know it's like talking on the phone people talk forever and they just don't shut up! Your probably thinking the samething about me on here huh! lol

 

 

THANKS ^_^

Halloween is soon :)

Jayden is so ready for Halloween! He's a big junk food eater so he's gonna love all the candy he will get this year! My little man is going to be Iron Man this year for Halloween! He has a cute pumpkin that I will share with everyone! I'm trying my best to write good blogs and update as well and I get tons of viewers, but NO comments! What are some ways to make a good blog so I can get comments as well? Anways, Jayden got sick on Monday and threw up around 2AM in the morning then Tuesday all he did was lay around! Poor guy been through alot! Then came around Wednesday he was feeling alot better to go too school. He was happy lil guy, but then here comes Thursday and I got sick in the morning! All I did was lay around and sleep on and off it was horrible! I hate being sick I just plain suck at it. We both only threw up once which makes me think it was just the bug that's going around where I live at in Iowa! I'm glad it was done and over with because I hate seeing my little guy sick it makes me feel horrible that I really can't do much for him, but what all of us mommies can do though is give them lots of lovin' and hugs! :) I can't believe that Jayden's first school pictures are on Monday! I'm so excited that I can't wait to see them! Ahhh. I just can't believe how much he has grown up already there are days though where I want him to be a baby again, but then again these days are just as precious as he was a little baby! I love you Jayden and don't forget that forever and always I will be by your side no matter what happens in life I'm there! No matter what I'm gonna be by your side every step of the way no matter how hard life may get I will be there! Your my sunshine always! :)

 

 

So, I'm wondering for my viewers what will make my blog better because I get a lot of views, but no comments! What am I doing wrong? What should I do? If you could let me know that would be a lot of help! I'm trying my best to make a good blog for everyone and I love sharing my stories with you too, but I can't seem to get anywhere with my blog! What to do? Should I do less photos or less stories? Or do you like my photos and don't like my stories! I mean come on people I need some feedback on what I can do to make my blog better for you guys out there in the world to see! Should I do videos and share them?I figured if I put my photos a certain way to make my blog look a little better that would help as well. What do you guys think of it?  I do have a youtube that I can share my videos on here with you guys! I need feedback on what I should do more with my blog. Thank you!

 

 

School/Halloween/Life Update :)

I still can't believe that my little guy is in school. He's doing so great and soon will be his first parent teacher conference! I'm pretty excited! He's been bringing books home so we can read too him and I absolutely love reading! Jayden is enjoying school so much that it puts a huge smile on my face! In the morning he gets up and ready to go! It's not even time to go yet and he's ready! Too cute! His best part about school is he gets to play with his friends and rides the best home afterwards! Jayden loves to ride the bus home it makes him feel like a bg boy! Jayden is growing up so fast! The other day he got his finger pinched at school and the nurse called me and said that his finger was turning purple! I didn't even let him ride the bus that day I was too worried and left went and got him! It wasn't even purple, but you could see the scratches! Poor little guy, but he's tough! :)

Halloween is coming up soon! I love this holiday! My favorite part about Halloween is watching all the scary movies, but now since I have my little boy I love taking him trick or treating! :) He loves candy, but what kid doesn't! He's definately a candy freak! Every day when he wake up "I want candy!" Too cute! Jayden is going to love trick or treating now that he's a little older! I love candy too so that's where he probably gets it from! Halloween is a fun holiday were you get to dress up and be someone different for one day! I just love this holiday! I love all scary movies! I like those cheesy kind such as Scream, Halloween, IT, Chucky, Nightmare On Elm Street, Paranormal Activity, Jaws, The Crazies, Texas Chainsaw, SAW, The Mist, Pet Semetary, Friday the 13th! Well, those are a few of my favorite scary movies for Halloween! What are your favorite movies that you liketo watch? Comment, below! :)

I need to do something else to do with my life! Hs father and I still aren't back together and its been since the beginning of May! I'm not sure how much longer I can go through this! Its killing me not being with him! I never even thought this would happen to us at all! We are a family and families don't give up on each other! We did fight, but I don't want to do that anymore! I want to do the right thing and start over for our family! I really want him back so bad, but I think it's too late! It's so hard to love someone and then they love someone else instead! It hurts so much! All I want is another chance to do the right thing over because I do love him so much and I care for him a lot! I didn't show him how much I loved him or how much I appreciated him! I did all the wrong things! Now I'm wanting to do the right things for him, but I don't think I will have that chance! I didn't want this I want to be with him and Jayden, all of us together again like were suppose to. I'm sorry that I fought, but I was just trying to keep us together! I didn't want to lose you! I want to try again and do the right thing for our family! I don't want to be this kind of family! I want to be the type of family who is always there for each other, who don't give up, and a family who loves one another! No matter how hard you never give up! I just want that chance to do the right thing! Second chances are always good if you try!

 

I love you Jayden no matter what with all of my heart you will always be my baby boy! You are my entire world and I will never leave your side! You are growing up to be such a handsome man! You are my pride & Joy! Thank you God for giving me the best gift ever! :)

 

Update: AWESOME DAY! :D

Today has been such an awesome day! We spent all day with his daddy and it was amazing! Jayden had school this morning so his daddy and I had some alone time which was even better! We haven't had alone time to ourselves in such a long time that it felt great! :) Airshow tonight and I am hoping that we will be going to it unless he intends to fall asleep before he gets back from the store with pa and granny! He was so good at school today! As I dropped him off at school he didn't even cry he said "Bye Mom!" it made me sad knowing that he's there and I had to walk away! I'm glad though that he's finally getting use to it! He has his first project that is due Monday! He's going to be learning so much more in school and I'm very excited for him! After school he gets excited to see me when I pick him up and when he has something to show me he's so happy! Today he enjoyed having his father there when we picked him up! He loved spending the whole day with him! I'm hoping that we have more days like this because he and I both miss and love his daddy very much!

★ I love you Jayden! No matter what we will always be there for you! We are proud parents and I know that as of right now everything is a mess, but I can tell you that it will get better! Everyone makes mistakes, but at the end we all learn from them! I know for sure that I have learned my lesson and I'm proud of myself for how much I have grown up! You will learn everything as you get older! We love you so much with all of our hearts! You are our pide and joy! Our little precious angel who will always be our little baby no matter what! ★

He is my world and no matter what happens I will always be there for him! I know life may be hard for him as he gets older with having the velo-cardio-facial syndrome, but he will always have family and friends by his side to protect him. He will also learn to stand up for himself as well. I am so proud of him for how much he has grown in life! He is a happy kid no matter what, but he's even happier when he is around his father! When we are all together he is a total different child! I feel so bad that this has happen to us and wish that there was a way to fix everything, but I can't! I know though that he will be alright. Like I said we all make mistakes in life and learn from them as we go along!

Well, I would really wish that people who vie my page at least give me some feedback on my stories. I knwo that they aren't the best, but I'm trying to be a better writer. My son is important to us and we love him! This is all about him and us as a family! We may not be together as of right now, but soon hopefully everything will be alright at the end! You mean the world to us! You always put a smile on our face and always have tons of laughter! :)

We love you Jayden! ★

Here is his first project that he brought home from school. Jayden was very excited to show his pictures to me when I picked up him! As soon as we got home mommy (me) put them right on the fridge! :)

Update: Jayden goes to school and Life is getting better!

 

Let's just start with the fact I'm not very happy how Jayden got to experience his first day on the bus in the morning! As we were walking to the school bus my mom asked the lady if she was running late and she said yes like in a bad attitude! Then my mom said that I was riding on the bus the first day with Jayden because he was already scared. She was like did you tell the school that in a bad attitude! I'm not happy that this has happen to my little guy! First day on the bus is suppose to be a good experience. He won't be riding on the bus until he gets old and can stand up for himself. Otherwise Jayden going to school has been getting a little better. The first few days he bawled for me since he has been getting wa too attached to me! I know that he loves it though he alway talks about how much fun he has after school and gets to play outside! I miss him when he's gone it's so different him not being here in the morning, but I'm so happy to see him when I pick him up! The second day of school in the hallway he start running towards me and said "MOMMY!" It was so cute! I love him so much! He's my entire life and wouldn't know what I do without him! He's my  best friend and I will always be there for him! I hope the next couple of days goes better for him and he starts getting use to going There! I'm just not happy about the whole bus thing, but I will be talking to the principle and the bus barn about what happen this morning and that the lady shouldn't be a bus driver. I know as he gets use to school he will start loving it and have tons of fun. I know as he gets a little older that he's gonna want to stay the night at someone house with his friends and start going to birthday parties. I don't even want to think about those days yet. I can't believe how much he is growing up! He just turned three years of age September 7th and he's doing much better now! He had his tonsils taken out on his birthday and for a whole week it was a nightmare, but thank god he is much better! We love you Jayden everything will get better I promise! Things maybe hard right now, but it will be okay at the end everything will get better! I know we've made mistakes in our lives and I'm sorry! Daddy loves you very much and he's sorry for everything! In a couple of months though this will all be over with and we will be a family again! School will also get better for you! I promise! You will be okay at school there are tons of teachers that will be by your side and that will protect you! It maybe hard at first, but it gets better and you'll start enjoying it! The bus might of not been fun at first, but that's not your fault don't blame yourself. Maybe we went to fast for the bus, but your always talking about it and wanted to go on it like a big boy! I'm so proud of you how far you have already came in life! Your such a big boy! Jayden goes to morning developmental preschool cause of his speech and his velo-cardio-facial syndrome. They teach him blocks, numbers, alphabet and ect.. He mostly loves to play outside and he's definately my little dare devil. He's not scared of anything and will climb on anything possible even jumping off of it.

Jayden is now three years of age with velo-cardio-facial syndrome like mommy! I'm hoping he dont have a life like I had when I was a little girl! I may seem like I had a bad childhood, but really I just got made fun of a lot when I was little. I got made fun of the way I talk because people are very cruel and some are still cruel.... I want him to know that I am always here for him when someone pick on him. His daddy will also be there as well. We love you Jayden and want you to have a good life. We want to give you everything that you want and need because you deserve it. Your going through a lot in life, but your being a big boy about it. I know you miss your daddy and I do too, but we all love you and we will take care of you thorughout your whole life. I can't believe your going to school. I cant wait to pick him up and give him tons of hugs and kisses! Mommy and daddy loves you very much Jayden with all of our hearts no matter what!

Your daddy and I will be back together again soon! I promise you that! He's not happy who he is with and he's sorry for hurting us! They always fight and never get a long! I wish  could help him, but I can't he said he has done this to himself. I ddin't want non of this and I told daddy that she wasn't right for him because they have nothing in common and she is just to jealous of a person! She has tried to keep your daddy away from me and from talking to each other! She's going to have to get use to it because we had you together! Soon in the next couple of months though I'm hoping we will be back together again. When taxes come around she is hopefully going to find her own place and we will be back together again! As a happy little family we use to be! I'm sorry this all happen it had nothing to do with you it was us! I love him very much with all of my heart! Even though he may have hurt me really bad I still love him cause he was always and still is there for us no matter what! He loves you to and miss you a lot. Now that he has his own car he will be able to come and pick you up and be with you anytime he wants. We can all even three spend time together as well. It's going to get better I know that for sure. I know that we will never be friends again. The girl he is with was my best friend, but not anymore! She lost my trust and she betrayed me! I would of never done anything like this to either of them! I have a big heart and care for others way to much! I love him and always will. I appreiciate everything he has done for us! I may not of shown it before, but I am now because I love and care for you!

 

 

Grandpa's Boy!

Update on Jayden's Tonsils/adenoids and life update

You are all probably wondering how Jayden is doing! Well, he's doing great with a little bit of falling down a lot! I'm pretty sure though he's over doing it just a tad bit! He had surgery on his tonsils and adenoids Friday!  Boy, I didn't think we were actually gonna get out of that hospital any time soon! We had to be there by 7:40! He didn't go into surgery until 10:30 maybe 11 in the morning! We waited forever and ever the worst part was we had a kid next to us and he was screaming which scared Jayden even more, but poor kid next to us! It was a very long day and it has been a very long weekend! I'm glad I had Friday and Saturday off to be with him while he heals! I had to go back to work Sunday, but have Monday and Tuesday off which is always good! :-) It was definately a long procress, but I'm glad to be home! I am just very exhausted because at night it seems like he has more pain then during the day! During the day he's up and moving around and somewhat eating! All he wants to eat is pizza, I can't get him to eat anything else! He loves his pop which is good cause that means he isn't hydrated if he drinks enough fluids! He's suppose to be on solids for a whole 2 weeks plus clear liquids! Hopefully he will be better by Monday so we will go to school. I can't believe he is 3 years of age and going to school soon! He's definately not a little boy anymore! No matter what though he will always be my baby boy to me! I love him so much with all of my heart! He has the greatest manners a little boy could ever have! When you sneeze he says "bless you" and he says "thank you and welcome!" He's my little sweetheart and I love him! He has the best hugs and kisses ever! Those moments will forever be in my heart always treasured there in a safe place! I love watching movies with him and spending every moment with him that I can get! There are times that can be really hard and sometimes I just need a break, but nobody is perfect! We are have our hard times in life! I can't believe how much he has grown! He's going to be exactly like his daddy! Were still not together, but I'm hoping someday we will be because we have been getting a long really great! I still can't believe that all this has happen to me! We really know who are true friends are as we get older! I know though that he's not happy with her, but it's just a big mess that he can't get out of. She has no where to go which she has to wait until tax time and then she is gone! He misses his son really bad and which he never done this either! He admits that he fucked up and wish he could go back and change everything, but we both can't! I'm glad though that we still talk to each other and hang out with each other too.

I've been doing a little better, but I do have my days when I can get really depressed and just wanna scream my head off! I get so mad easily, but I"m trying my best to grow up! I don't have a best friend anymore and it's gonna stay that way because I will never be able to trust her again! She knew how much I love him and cared about him, but she didn't think about my feelings! It was all about her! She's tried to keep us apart and not text each other, but that ain't gonna happen! I would of never done have the shit she has done to him! She has disrespected him in so many ways and disrespected me as well as my son! She took life away from us and this is her own fault for losing a whole lifetime friendship! I know that whole truth about them though he tells me everything about there relationship! It's too funny actually! She thinks I"m scared of her! Wrong! No wonder why she can't keep a relationship! I mean she does have four kids by four different dads, but who she gonna find to be with her and all those kids! Trust me those kids are no fun they are brats and they get no discipline! I may not be a good mother either at times, but I would never have kids like that! Her mouth is so horrible that I"m surprised that her kids don't pick up those words too. I still can't believe it though. The funny part is she has a facebook and she likes to tag him in shit jut to piss me off cause he don't like any of it! It's so annoying because she constantly does it and nobody can post anything on his wall or she has a big fit. I know I may have been jealous, but I've grown up and I'm glad were getting along so well.

I know that this is a bunch of jumbo shit that none of you really care about, but I really had to vent because I'm so hurt in so may ways! I love him and Jayden so much with all of my heart! I know they ain't gonna last long! I told him not to get with her because she don't do nothing! I would love to see her own house because it would be a complete mess! She don't pick up after her kids or nothing! It's crazy! I tried my best to pick up around the house, but alot of it became way too much! I'm just kind of rambling around here because I really don't know what to say, but vent! It's not like anybody ever comments on anything they just read it and say "uhm, wow she is weird" lol I'm tired of having all this money and then it's gone in a week. I need to start saving because I've got bills to pay! Jayden birthday was Friday which he is three years of age and I spent some crazy money! I'm hoping as soon as he gets better we will have a better party for him with the family! I'm hoping that life will look up to us soon. I love my hours at work which means more time with my son, but I do need the money! I'm only getting three days of work at McDonalds and that's not enough! It's time to start saving up! I love the people that I work with they are great and have been there for me! It's been hard moving back to my parents place! Sometimes, I feel like I am invading there privacy and that they don't want us here! There is no way though that I could find my own place since I don't have the money! 

That picture above is when we were leaving from the hospital. I can't wait until he gets better then we will be able to go too the park and do things again! I'm tired of sitting at home doing absolutely nothing, but watching movies non stop! He loves brushing his teeth now and getting in the bath tub, but he still hates his hair washed! I don't get it he use to love taking baths and now he's afraid! He loves the water and I always took him downtown or to the fountain at the park! Jayden had so much fun when he was feeling good! One of these he's gonna turn into a pizza that's all he ever wants is to eat pizza and drink pop! We give him 7 up which is better with pop that has caffiene in it! I'm pretty sure he don't need that! He's hyper as it is being a little boy and being stubborn! 

PROUD MAMMA

Poor little guy!

Today's agenda wasn't suppose to be planned this way! I had to work 11 to 2 and got off a little early too! After work we had to take Jayden to the ear, nose and throat docotor for his tonsils. When we went to peds his broncihtis was fine it went away, but his tonsils was still big! Today when we went to the doctor he said his tonsils were enormous to the poing were they were touching. So, on his SADLY on his birthday he gets his tonsils/abnoids removed! My poor little guy he just seems like no matter what he's going through something! First, he had amonia at the beginning of the month and then he got bronchitis then he has to get his tonsils removed. One thing after another, but good thing is he might be going to school soon.  On Monday we go to Grimes school with the AEA Staffing meeting and meet some teachers! Then hopefully, the 17th he will be starting school. I know little man will enjoy school. He definately loves playing with other kids, but I'm scared for him because he is starting to talk more, but he still mumbles too. I don't want the other kids making fun of him and then Jayden not being able to say something to the teachers if there mean to him. I'm happy, but then I'm scared! I sure hope he does okay he is strong like his daddy. Well, tomorrow I actually have off because I had to request it off. I usually work every weekend, but I have no babysitter for tomorrow. It's actually nice to have a Saturday off for a while I have next Saturday off too. I get to spend more time with my son which is always nice! We won't be able to eat lunch at a restraunt cause I have no money, but maybe I will take him to the park or go downtown and play in the water if it's nice enough! I love my little man with all of my heart and wouldn't know what I do without him.He maybe hard to handle at times, but no matter what I love him with all of my heart and soul. :)

Today's agenda

Well, I've decided to make another blog about site modeling! I thought it be a different expierence and fun to do! Today we took the movies back and rented more! Then my little guy had to have blood work done and we went to eat at Hardee's for lunch! We went to the docotor to check about his tonsils and they are over larged. There is no redness, but he asked us if he snores and wakes up cranky! He's always snoring and he is a huge grouch when he wakes up! My poor little man! We go back to the docotor tomorrow after I get off work to the ear, nose throat docotor to see if he needs them removed! My little man is going through so much right now in life! It's so sad.

Life could be better!

Be thankful for what you got in life because someday you may never know when it's gone! Appreciate them as well because if they are there for you then that means they care for you! Don't complain about the things you don't got because what's more important is the things you have in life! Be happy for what you got in life because if your not happy, you don't be thankful and you don't appreciate then you never know when you lose them! I've learned that in the past three months I've been heartbroken! I'm thankful to have my son in my life! He always knows how to make his mommy smile and laugh. but I just wish things could be different! I wish that I would of learned my lesson sooner because Jayden would still have his parents together!

On the other note: Life can be good at times! We still spend time together and text each other which is always nice! I love being around him and spending so much time with him! He means a lot to me and so does Jayden! I've been trying to find us more entertaining things to do in life besides sit at home and do nothing! It's hard though with barely any money and the job I've got. I've been searching for internet jobs like if I can earn money on blogging?

If you have any ideas for me please let me know! I'm trying to make my site a little better, but I really don't know what to talk about or how to make my blogger design better? I wanna do a site modeling blogging because that's what I've been doing on facebook too.

Tomorrow we find out if little guy gets his tonsils taken out or not because he's been sick a lot this month! At the beginning of the month he had amonia and then in the middle of the month he had bronchitis. I sure hope he don't have surgery cause I know what they are all about. I had my tonsils taken out because they though that would help with my speech, but it didn't help!

So, if you have any ideas on a blogging ideas that would be much appreciated! I love watching The Secret Life, watching movies, facebook, my son, family and friends, music, food, and youtube videos!

Thank you to whomever reads my blogs! It be nice to have some comments on here as well.
Sincerely, Nicole

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Be happy no matter how hard life can be!

Jayden is my hero, my everything, my miracle who keeps me moving forward everyday of my life! No matter how hard life can be at times he is always there to keep me smiling! I love my son with all of my heart no matter what anybody says! He's my little boy forever!

I've learned a lot about life these past couple months. My first lesson was to appreciate the things you got until you lose them. That's very important in life cause you never know what may happened at the end! My second lesson learned is to be happy with life! Everyone has a rough life, but there are people out there who have it harder than we do. People who have no homes, no money, food, nothing! Imagine being those people!  We should all think about others life isn't just about YOU think about them what there going through! My third lesson I learned is not to fight! Fighting doesn't get you anywhere in life! You gotta be patient and things at the end will always work out!
Even with my little boy he can be hard to handle at times, but I've learned to be patient with him! He's important and my first priority!  My little angel means everything to me! I love you Jayden!
I have also learned to cook. My favorite is enchilada casserole! Also been taking my little man to the park and downtown to play in the water! Realized that I can't stay in all day and be depressed I've got to be there for my little boy! Things have been doing better for us! We have been getting along so well. He even sent me and Jayden a good morning thinking about you guys text message!  Made me smile! Can't fight with him cause that's not gonna get us no where! I'm happy that things have been going so well. I'm hoping someday that you'll change your mind! I want to make you happy! I don't want to make anymore mistakes! I know that everything isn't perfect, but I want to make us perfect! :)

Kisses from Jayden and I we hope you all enjoy our pictures and posts!

 We live, learn and love life everyday! :)