You are all probably wondering how Jayden is doing! Well, he's doing great with a little bit of falling down a lot! I'm pretty sure though he's over doing it just a tad bit! He had surgery on his tonsils and adenoids Friday! Boy, I didn't think we were actually gonna get out of that hospital any time soon! We had to be there by 7:40! He didn't go into surgery until 10:30 maybe 11 in the morning! We waited forever and ever the worst part was we had a kid next to us and he was screaming which scared Jayden even more, but poor kid next to us! It was a very long day and it has been a very long weekend! I'm glad I had Friday and Saturday off to be with him while he heals! I had to go back to work Sunday, but have Monday and Tuesday off which is always good! :-) It was definately a long procress, but I'm glad to be home! I am just very exhausted because at night it seems like he has more pain then during the day! During the day he's up and moving around and somewhat eating! All he wants to eat is pizza, I can't get him to eat anything else! He loves his pop which is good cause that means he isn't hydrated if he drinks enough fluids! He's suppose to be on solids for a whole 2 weeks plus clear liquids! Hopefully he will be better by Monday so we will go to school. I can't believe he is 3 years of age and going to school soon! He's definately not a little boy anymore! No matter what though he will always be my baby boy to me! I love him so much with all of my heart! He has the greatest manners a little boy could ever have! When you sneeze he says "bless you" and he says "thank you and welcome!" He's my little sweetheart and I love him! He has the best hugs and kisses ever! Those moments will forever be in my heart always treasured there in a safe place! I love watching movies with him and spending every moment with him that I can get! There are times that can be really hard and sometimes I just need a break, but nobody is perfect! We are have our hard times in life! I can't believe how much he has grown! He's going to be exactly like his daddy! Were still not together, but I'm hoping someday we will be because we have been getting a long really great! I still can't believe that all this has happen to me! We really know who are true friends are as we get older! I know though that he's not happy with her, but it's just a big mess that he can't get out of. She has no where to go which she has to wait until tax time and then she is gone! He misses his son really bad and which he never done this either! He admits that he fucked up and wish he could go back and change everything, but we both can't! I'm glad though that we still talk to each other and hang out with each other too.
I've been doing a little better, but I do have my days when I can get really depressed and just wanna scream my head off! I get so mad easily, but I"m trying my best to grow up! I don't have a best friend anymore and it's gonna stay that way because I will never be able to trust her again! She knew how much I love him and cared about him, but she didn't think about my feelings! It was all about her! She's tried to keep us apart and not text each other, but that ain't gonna happen! I would of never done have the shit she has done to him! She has disrespected him in so many ways and disrespected me as well as my son! She took life away from us and this is her own fault for losing a whole lifetime friendship! I know that whole truth about them though he tells me everything about there relationship! It's too funny actually! She thinks I"m scared of her! Wrong! No wonder why she can't keep a relationship! I mean she does have four kids by four different dads, but who she gonna find to be with her and all those kids! Trust me those kids are no fun they are brats and they get no discipline! I may not be a good mother either at times, but I would never have kids like that! Her mouth is so horrible that I"m surprised that her kids don't pick up those words too. I still can't believe it though. The funny part is she has a facebook and she likes to tag him in shit jut to piss me off cause he don't like any of it! It's so annoying because she constantly does it and nobody can post anything on his wall or she has a big fit. I know I may have been jealous, but I've grown up and I'm glad were getting along so well.
I know that this is a bunch of jumbo shit that none of you really care about, but I really had to vent because I'm so hurt in so may ways! I love him and Jayden so much with all of my heart! I know they ain't gonna last long! I told him not to get with her because she don't do nothing! I would love to see her own house because it would be a complete mess! She don't pick up after her kids or nothing! It's crazy! I tried my best to pick up around the house, but alot of it became way too much! I'm just kind of rambling around here because I really don't know what to say, but vent! It's not like anybody ever comments on anything they just read it and say "uhm, wow she is weird" lol I'm tired of having all this money and then it's gone in a week. I need to start saving because I've got bills to pay! Jayden birthday was Friday which he is three years of age and I spent some crazy money! I'm hoping as soon as he gets better we will have a better party for him with the family! I'm hoping that life will look up to us soon. I love my hours at work which means more time with my son, but I do need the money! I'm only getting three days of work at McDonalds and that's not enough! It's time to start saving up! I love the people that I work with they are great and have been there for me! It's been hard moving back to my parents place! Sometimes, I feel like I am invading there privacy and that they don't want us here! There is no way though that I could find my own place since I don't have the money!
That picture above is when we were leaving from the hospital. I can't wait until he gets better then we will be able to go too the park and do things again! I'm tired of sitting at home doing absolutely nothing, but watching movies non stop! He loves brushing his teeth now and getting in the bath tub, but he still hates his hair washed! I don't get it he use to love taking baths and now he's afraid! He loves the water and I always took him downtown or to the fountain at the park! Jayden had so much fun when he was feeling good! One of these he's gonna turn into a pizza that's all he ever wants is to eat pizza and drink pop! We give him 7 up which is better with pop that has caffiene in it! I'm pretty sure he don't need that! He's hyper as it is being a little boy and being stubborn!
PROUD MAMMA
Today has been such an awesome day! We spent all day with his daddy and it was amazing! Jayden had school this morning so his daddy and I had some alone time which was even better! We haven't had alone time to ourselves in such a long time that it felt great! :) Airshow tonight and I am hoping that we will be going to it unless he intends to fall asleep before he gets back from the store with pa and granny! He was so good at school today! As I dropped him off at school he didn't even cry he said "Bye Mom!" it made me sad knowing that he's there and I had to walk away! I'm glad though that he's finally getting use to it! He has his first project that is due Monday! He's going to be learning so much more in school and I'm very excited for him! After school he gets excited to see me when I pick him up and when he has something to show me he's so happy! Today he enjoyed having his father there when we picked him up! He loved spending the whole day with him! I'm hoping that we have more days like this because he and I both miss and love his daddy very much! 
