Happy New Year! *2013*

   HAPPY NEW YEAR! *2013* (January 1st, 2013)

Cheers to the new year! The last chapter of the book is finally done that means let's open a new chapter and start a new beginning, but better! I've got lots of new goals set for my life! I didn't make a new years resolution because I never even accomplish it anyways! Here's my plan: Pay off my title loan which is almost done. I've only got $279 left and I'm going to pay that off so it can be done and over with! I will most definitely won't do it ever again! It's a long process and it's overwhelming to keep up with the payments! Anyways, then I'm going to save up more and more money to get the heck out of my parents place because it's just not working out! There are way too many struggles that I just can't deal with anymore! They are way to strict that I just can't stand the fact my son can't do anything my parents place! We need to be out of my parents place not just because we are struggling, but because it's that time now to move on and do better things with our lives! I'm a grown mother and need to be out on my own! I do not want to live with my parents for the rest of my life! It's time now to move and be more mature about life! Then it's time to save more money cause I need a new car! It's not the fact it's not working it's just another one of those time thing again it's kind of falling apart! They are things that can be fixed, but I want a nicer car as well. I know, you guys are probably saying "Hey, at least you got a running car!" Yes, you are right on that one! I'm glad I do have a car because if I didn't have one we wouldn't be going anywhere! I would just like to update on a newer car for once! I'm also wanting to buy a laptop computer, but I'm thinking if I save up enough money that will come in between everything and then we really need some new clothes! I guess you could say I kind of have a new years resolution, but more like goals and plans for the new year! Mostly, I just need to start saving up money because someday down the road I want to go back to college! Maybe do a few online classes so I can still be home with my little man! I know that I can do this as long as I set my heart on it and push myself hard not to spend money when I don't need certain things then I know I can do it! I believe in myself that I can do anything I want to if I just set my heart on it! It's going to be a long and hard progress, but it will happen! I'm hoping that everyone was safe tonight on New Years! I can't believe it's January 1st, 2013 approximately 12:54 AM as of right now! That is crazy how fast time flies anymore because my son isn't so little anymore! He's growing way to fast, but it's okay because no matter what I will always cherish every moment!


My little man means the world to me no matter what! I love him so much with all of my heart! We may have our hard times, but no matter what I will always be there for him! I will cherish every moment we have together! He always knows how to put a smile on my face when I'm down! My little man always making me laugh cause he can be so silly! Even as soon as he wakes up he has a smile on his face! I'm ready to take brand new pictures for the new year and will definitely try to post them as soon as I can to share with everyone that still follows us!

My life story

It's been one heck of a week for my little boy! He has been sick for over a week now and I think he's finally getting better! Monday night on Christmas Even my parents took him to the emergency room while I was at work and thankfully my manager let me off early so I can be with my son! My son Jayden went in with a fever! The doctors said that he was dehydrated, bronchitis and rsv which is some sort of respiratory syncytial virus! He had his follow up with the pediactric doctor on Wednesday and his bronchitis is gone, but still has the rsv. Now he also has ear infections in both of his ears! God just needs to give my son a break! I'm tired of seeing my son sick all the time! I think they said he has a small immune system which is why he has been sick. This time though he wasn't admitted into the hospital like he was in 2011 because his oxygen was low, but this time since he's a little older his oxygen is keeping up with him! Besides with my son being sick we had a pretty good Christmas! He loved opening his presents that he didn't want to stop! He said "one more" cause he wanted to open more presents! He's so darn cute! Now he's on Christmas break and don't go back to school until January 2nd and I'm hoping he starts to feeling better by then because he loves school and riding the bus! We were thinking about taking him out of school because since he has been in school he's been sick a lot. We go to Iowa City on the 31st of December for his check up about his syndrome! I hate those long drives, but it's worth it for my son so we know that he is doing alright! His father and I are still split up which is still hard to believe! I"m hoping the year of 2013 will treat us a lot better because we could use a miracle! I can't even stand my ex best friend anymore for all the crap she has put me through! I don't want to speak to her or even see her anymore! I'm so through with our friendship that even if the do split up I won't talk to her or even be around her for what she has done to my life! She was always jealous of what I had and now she has it, but remember Karma is a bitch! My job has been doing good I have been there for almost 2 years now and I also got a raise! I am almost done with my title loan and when that is fully paid off I'm getting myself a laptop computer and hopefully finding a place to live on my own instead of with my parents! Most of the time I can't stand living with them because I'm constantly getting yelled at and they think I don't do nothing for my kid. Wrong, I do everything for my child I love my son with all of my heart! I'm hoping by next year though that his father and I will hopefully be back together soon! That would be great! Jayden keeps saying "I wanna go home," but of course that doesn't matter to his father cause yet we still aren't together! It's just so frustrating! I have to mention that I haven't start my period this month which has worried me a lot! I have had sex this month, but my tubes are tied too! It could just be stress and depression! Maybe I am worrying to much! Anyways, I guess that's enough rambling for now I'll keep updating about Jayden and when we go to Iowa City the 31st!