Let's put the past behind us and move on with a whole different year with better memories and a better life! Living life with bad memories leaves you with negativity and unhappiness. Let's put on smiles and be happy no matter what. If a bitch tries to bring you down put that frown back to a happy face because no bitch is worth a frown. It's gonna be a whole new year without the drama, negativity and the unhappiness! I ain't gonna let no bitch bring me down nor make my life miserable. That's what's up! :)
The first beginning of the year didn't start out the way I wanted it to, but at least as the days went by it started to get better. Then as it starts to get better it started to get to the point where I frowned! I'm trying my best to NOT let bitches bring me down, but it's especially hard when it has something to do with my boyfriend! People need to realize that I'm with him and if you don't like it then you'll have to deal with it because that's how it's gonna be. The guy I am with now I have been with him for over 3 years now and he's my first real love! As I was younger I never thought I have a boyfriend in my life or even kids at all because of one main thing : my syndrome! I never thought I was pretty or even good enough for any guy at all. I know that nobody is perfect, but that's just how I felt. As I got older I realized though that looks don't matter and that I shouldn't care what people think of me. I'm my own person for a reason and that's how it's gonna be. Everyone is unique and special in there own way! I just wanted everyone to know that because I'm tired of all the hurt I've been through! I would love to put this on my Facebook, but I already know how that's gonna turn out to be!
As for my wonderful son I love him so much! My son Jayden is my entire world and he will always be first no matter what. I don't know what I do without him because he has changed my life in so many ways! I can't belive that this year he will be 3 years of age and hopefully going to school. I'm so scared when he goes to school because of people possibly making fun of him. I don't want him to go through things that I have been through. It was a hard child hood for me while I was in school everyone made fun of me and it made me miserable. Every day after school I'd go home in tears because of the horrible words that were said to me. I really don't want my son to go through all that hurt because he is the sweetest little boy ever!
I'm gonna make this year better without the negativity, drama and all the frowns! I'm gonna turn those frowns upside down and be who I wanna be. I'm gonna live my own life no matter what people say because I'm a grown adult! There's a lot of people though that still need to grow up and eventually those people willl realize in the future that not everything revolves around them.
As for now, I'm just loving my life one day at a time. Nobody is worth a frown always keeps miling because of what you have in front of you! If you worry about what others think of you too much then you'll be frowning all day! I'm just gonna love my life and not worry about anything, but my boys because they mean the world to me and I love them both very much! :)
