Life has been so hard the past few days and sometimes I just want to give up, but I know I can't because I need to be there for my wonderful son Jayden. My son hasn't been eatting that well and it has beeen scaring us because he has lost a lot of weight. We took him to the doctor once and he said that Jayden is going through a stage. After a few months later he still wasn't eatting very well and was worrying me and his daddy even more. I finally took him back to the doctor and Dr. Jackson decided to do a lab work to see if he could be anemic or if it could be his thyroid. The next day I called the doctors back to see if his lab results came in yet and she said that his Thyroid is abnormal and that's why he hasn't been eatting. I'm so scared for him and I'm hoping that the doctors can fix this problem because my little man really needs to start eatting better. Tuesday is his next doctor appointment and I'm very scared because they didn't even say what was gonna happen. I'm sure they will put him on a pill that he will have to take everyday and I hope that helps him. We will have to wait and see what happens. I'm so worried. I'm not sure if ya'll know about his syndrome. It's called vek-hcardio-facial syndrome and this could be one of his symptoms. Jayden is going to have different symptoms as I have because everybody is different in there own way. I hope that everything works out okay and that they help my little man because I love him with all of my heart. Lately, life has been hard, but nobody said it was going to be easy either. It gets frustrating hearing my baby boy get mad so easily. If he can't do something, like get up on the couch like he can then he gets so frustrated. Sometimes I can't take all of his screaming and crying and that frustrates me so much. I try to take it and let him cry, but sometimes it's so hard and I let tears come out to. Sometimes, I tell myself maybe I'm not meant to be a mom, but then I tell myself I've done a pretty damn good job with him and that I shouldn't let myself down, but it's so hard. I know it's motherhood, but everybody is different in there own way of showing it. It doesn't help though that Jayden has also been teething for the past few months and we haven't had much sleep at all. Jayden now has 4 teeth on top and 2 teeth on bottom. His gums are swollen and he's still teething. Jayden is now on sippy cups I threw away most of his bottles, but two. He uses his sippy cups throughout the day, but in the morning and at night before he goes to bed. I'm starting him on potty training soon. I've got a potty for him; already, but haven't started on it yet because I'm not to sure on what I'm doing. When he first started to walk he thought it was the coolest thing ever. He never really crawls anymore; unless, he's showing off. I'm not ready for him to 2 years of age this year because that's the terrible two's. I hope I can make it through the terrible two's. I should be able to though since I'm doing a good job through the teething part. Jayden loves watching Barney and dancing to the theme song. He also loves watching Sid the Science Kid in the morning that happens to be one of his favorites. Jayden loves all of his toys; especially, his big boy toys. He got a riding fire truck and wagon for christmas. Jayden's wagon is little that came with legos and he loves building. Jayden also got one of those cool tents and tunnel that he can crawl through. He got alot of goodies for Christmas and had a good time with family and friends. I love my little man with all of my heart. He's my favorite boy and I do anything for him because he means that much to me. No matter what happens I'll always be there for him no matter what. He may say some hurtful words to me as he gets older; such as, "I hate you", but those words will never break us. I love you Jayden - I hope that you won't forget that! <3
