I'm so proud of my son for being so well behaved today! :)

Iowa City went very well, but I'm glad to be home with my boys! My little guy cried when he got weighed and his height checked and lets not forget blood drawn! Poor little guy went through so much tonight, but I'm so proud of him for being such a good boy! He weighed 26.6 and 34inches tall plus they had to prick his finger which I definately hate! I'm glad to be home sitting next to him watching Toy Story 3...... We have watched Toy Story 3 about over a million of times over and over again. I practically have this whole movie memerized.



I'm glad we don't have to go back too IOwa City for another 6 months and this time were making it to where his daddy has a day off. My little guy definately needs his daddy to be there for him when he goes through all of this. It's hard on me to see my little guy crying and crying when I'm the one holding him down. It's so sad. I know it has to be sad on all of us mothers when our little ones cries because he is in pain. Being in pain isn't the greatest, of course nobody likes being in pain! I'm just glad my little guy is better.



The docotor told us he was gonna give me a call once the results come in. If his blood count is low then he will be on a high dosage and on his medicine longer. I really need to start giving him his medicine everyday, but sometimes I just forget. Exactly, why I gave up on taking my high blood pressure medicine because I'm so worried about giving him his medicine, but I"m doing better. I know that I definately need to take my medicine because if I don't take it then I could end up having a stroke or heart attack and I definately need to be here with my wonderful son. My son also needs to take his medicine everyday so he will develop really well.

My little guy is also going to AEA 16 early to for his speech. I think my little guy is doing very well because he is saying a few words, but not saying sentences. Every kid goes at there own speed though not all of them are the same. My main thing is that I'm surprised that he has already fallen asleep because he fell asleep on the way to Iowa City and the way home to Iowa City. This might be a long night since he has had all of this sleep. My little guy might plan on waking up very early in the morning. I"m glad I don't work until 11 tomorrow because I'm definately gonna be tired. I should go to bed now, but I wanna stay up for a little why and have time to myself....

I love my son he is my world no matter what!

We may say hurtful words, but we will always love each other.

Our love will always be strong and filled with happiness.

We always have a smile on our face because that's who we are.

He always keeps me happy by his sweetness.

My little guy loves giving hugs and kisses every day.

Even though he can be a pain in our butt we still love him.

We will always be there for you no matter where you are at.

I love you Jayden and Justin!

You will always be a part of my life!

Always have a place in my heart!

<3

It's been a good day off! :)

Today didn't start out as a good morning, but then the day got better because I'm a good mommy and spoiled my little guy! We went out to the Mall and ate at Maidrite! Jayden had a good lunch and ate most of his mashed potatoes. I'm proud of him for eatting so much because usually he don't eat much. He had fun riding on the school bus and didn't want to get off. We were going to Wal-Mart, but he decided to fall asleep on the way there. I guess the Mall wore him out so we just came home and now I'm relaxin' and watching My Fake Fiance. Now what to do though, I did make an update on my youtube video, but I may take a little nap before I have to go pick up the kids, who knows? I'm happy that Twilight is finally here! I really want to see the premiere  at midnight, but sadly I always have to work Friday and Saturday. I'm just glad though I get to see it tomorrow night after I get off work with my best friend. I'm glad though I got to spend time with my son today because I haven't been able to spend time with my little guy since I've been working. I'm hoping that the rest of my day goes as well as it has been because I hate having bad days, but doesn't everyone. :)

I love him so much he was having so much fun in the leaves today! I love to play, but every kid does. He's really into playing rough with the boys though which is good he plays with kids because that's how he gets to know more people. Jayden is a good kid and loves giving hugs and kisses which I love every moment of them. I would be so lost without him he is my everything and I love him with all of my heart :)

We may be different, but we are still just your average normal every day kids.

       


       I'm so proud of my baby boy! He has been trying to talk so much lately and I am hoping that he will get the hang of it soon. My little guy now says "toot" "toot" and "I love you!" I really hope that he starts to talk soon because it will definately be easier on us when he wants something. He is definately doing very good though in everything. I'm hoping that next year he will be going to headstart. He goes to AEA 16 for help with his speech. They said he is only a little behind, but not to far back at all which means if he progresses good he will be able ot go to school early. I think that he will love school because of all the toys and coloring and other kids. I'm just hoping that he will be okay with me leaving and him being with other kids because he's only been around family members. I also hope that he doesn't hit any kids or throw anything because he is into that stage right now.
      I am hoping that he will be potty trained by then because I'm tired of buying diapers. Were gonna be trying and trying to potty train him because he don't like to keep his clothes or diaper on. It's actually kind of frustrating for us that he don't want to keep any clothes on, but hopefully he will stop doing that. Potty training is so hard to do, but we don't do it every day like we should. We don't reward him we just tell him "big boy" because if we reward him then he's gonna what that every time. I'm so happy though that we got rid of his pacifier. It's hard though sometimes cause he is so whiney. I'm glad in a way though cause now he is trying to talk a lot more and that's very good.
       I can't believe how much he has grown over the years. He is 34 inches tall and weighs about 26lbs which is really good cause I'm hoping he will be in a booster seat soon. My little guy doesn't like being in his carseat and tries to get out all the time. I think he would love the booster seat because really he isn't strapped in and that's what he definately hates, but all toddlers hate that. He definately hates having his diaper changed, but that's mostly all kids for ya. Mostly he will only have his daddy change his diaper and clothes because he is a daddy's boy. Right now, he is in the daddy stage. When his daddy is home he doesn't want nothing to do with me, but when he isn't home then I'm all he wants and it makes me happy. One night I actually had a melt down and started to bawl cause my own son didn't even want me. It's so sad!

   That's me Nicole! I am 25 years of age with VCFS and I had a hard life, but now everything is good and I'm loving life every moment of it. It still can be hard at times, but no matter what I ain't gonna let nobody bring me down. I'm gonna keep my head held high and always have a smile on my face no matter what! I love my boyfriend and son so much they mean the world to me.

My son whom is 2 years of age loves giving those looks. Just like mommy! He is my everything no matter what I will always be there for him. My little guy loves spongebob, but mostly he loves Barney. We made his own little room with his own tv that he can watch all the Barney he wants. He watches Barney from the day he wakes up until he goes to bed. I love it when he is happy and Barney makes him happy that's all what matters to me! :) I love my little guy so much I wouldn't know what I'd do without him. I may get frustrated at times, but no matter what he will always be my baby boy!

I love my man he has always been there for me from the beginning! We have had our fights, but no matter what we will always be together. I always say we may fight, but that's what keeps us stronger. Someone fights in every realtionship no matter what I don't care what people say because nobody is perfect.  There have been times when we almost broke up, but that didn't stop us either because I love him so much and I know in a way he loves me to. It sucks though cause now that we have been together for over 3 years he isn't that lovey dovey kind of guy anymore. When we first got together he was always holding my hand, cuddling with me and always wanted to be around me. Now he don't do any of that I guess it got old.

I love the holidays

Hello everyone! I hope that everyone has enjoyed there holidays this year. Halloween has just ended and it was a definate success! We got to full buckets plus a half bag full and my son had a wonderful time. I couldn't believe how amazing he did there. I definately had a great success on my costume since I was a clown for work and everyone loved it. I even had to do my own make up and at first it was so complicated, but I got the hang of it. Next year I'm going as Raggedy Anne and it's going to be off the wall! This year my son was a monkey and he was so cute! I"m not sure what he's gonna be next year cause he will be 3 years of age and will be able to pick his own costume! I can't wait for next year it's gonna be even better.

Next is going to be Thanksgiving a thankful holiday. I love holidays because we get to spend time with family and that's so important. It's important because being with family always makes me feel so loved. Thanksgiving is when you give thanks to everyone! I love it because you can be helpful to people, but no matter what you should be helpful to everyone even if it's not a holiday. The food is even better because I love pumpkin pies and the turkey even though that takes forever to cook.

Then it's going to be Christmas and this year is going to be a definate success because we are actually getting a real tree since Jayden is old enough. I"m gonna love it cause Chrimstmas is my favorite holiday. Not only because of the presents, but most of all I get to see family I barely get to see and that makes me so happy. Christmas is such a good time of year to spend with family & friends while singing christmas carols and don't forget the best classic christmas movie ever Christmas Story! That movie is Halirious!

This year has been such a success and "m so happy that everything has been going smoothly! There have been times that I had break downs, but I always get back up cause I know I have to be strong for my son! I can't believe that this year will almost be over with. I definately don't want winter to come and besides my hours at work will be cut!

Also, please if you read this comment it would be much appreciated. I mean I know I don't have the most exciting stories, but I'm trying my! Thanks :)

Life is good.

Hello my fellow Bloggers!

I know that I haven't been on here much lately, but that's because bothof our computers has crashed. We now have a new computer with a webcam which is pretty cool because I can use them to make my youtube videos! I will share my youtube link with you all so you can go view, comment, and add me there as well.
  Lately, I've been working a lot again. I now work at McDonald's, you should come visit me if you live where I"m at. It's an alright place I mean it's not the best or anything, but it's better then nothing. It at least puts clothes on my sons back and food on the table. At least McDonalds' is actually training me on more things then just the lobby. Unlike Culvers they didn't train me on anything, but the lobby. I mean I knew how to take down the orders and take them out to the customers and make ice cream, that's it.
   I dislike that I have a learning disiability because it's much harder for me to learn different things on jobs. I can't count money back because of my learning disibilitiy. I won't be able to do register or drive through because of that reason and I would love to, but I wouldn't be able to count the money back.  I'm glad that I get to do the other things though such as grill and make the drinks, but it be nice to be on grill.
    On the good side though my son has been great and healthy. Even with his syndrome he has been a healthy baby boy. He does have the blood pressure, but other than that he is normal. Jayden has been eatting much better, but not always. We have tons of fun together and always playing. He loves Barney and loves watching Toy Story 3. Jayden is also talking a lot more which is a good thing. He says Barney, Mom, Dad, Ball, Hot, Yeah, YAY, Bye, Hi, and many more. I can't believe that he is 2 years of age now though. Time flies by way too fast. He's not potty trained yet though, but hopefully he will be soon. As he gets 3 years of age he will be going to headstart. I just can't believe that time is going by so fast.
     I'm doing pretty good. I am now working at McDonald's and that's going great. I hate the fact though I have high blood pressure and I have to take medicine for it, but I guess I have to take it so I can be here for my son. Today at work though I felt dizzy and I wanted to pass out. I think it was because I didn't eat though so I am going to eat before I go to work. Other than that everything is going good, but I need friends to get out of the house more. I'm tired of always being on Facebook right after I get off work. There's gotta be more things to do around this stupid town.
    My relationship with my boyfriend is going great. I mean we do fight still, but not as much as we use to. Now I just let him go out and do things because i'm sick of fighting with him all the time. He thinks that he never gets to do anything, but really he does whatever he wants. I"m the one who stays home with Jayden and we are always bored especially when Justin is outside. Other than that though we have been pretty good.
    
Here are my links.

Oh and here is my youtube link that everyone should go visit.
http://www.youtube.com/user/LifeAsNicole?feature=mhee

I also have a facebook.
https://www.facebook.com/#!/nicole.kindig

Also Twitter.
http://twitter.com/#!/NicoleKindig

Don't forget I also have formspring.
http://www.formspring.me/nicolemariex24

Goodbye! but i'll be posting more folks! :)

Jayden loves that webcam! Ain't he the cutest little bug you ever seen. Jayden loves giving hugs and kisses to mommy and daddy. He's also a big daddy's boy and whenever daddy is around he doesn't want nothing to do with me. It's really sad because I love him so much and I'm with him all the time. I love this picture though. It's very cute! I love him with all of my heart and I will always be there for him no matter what. I know that life is going to be hard for him because of his syndrome and it sucks that he is gonna have to go through all of that crap like I did.

Nobody said life was going to be easy!

Life has been so hard the past few days and sometimes I just want to give up, but I know I can't because I need to be there for my wonderful son Jayden. My son hasn't been eatting that well and it has beeen scaring us because he has lost a lot of weight. We took him to the doctor once and he said that Jayden is going through a stage. After a few months later he still wasn't eatting very well and was worrying me and his daddy even more. I finally took him back to the doctor and Dr. Jackson decided to do a lab work to see if he could be anemic or if it could be his thyroid. The next day I called the doctors back to see if his lab results came in yet and she said that his Thyroid is abnormal and that's why he hasn't been eatting. I'm so scared for him and I'm hoping that the doctors can fix this problem because my little man really needs to start eatting better. Tuesday is his next doctor appointment and I'm very scared because they didn't even say what was gonna happen. I'm sure they will put him on a pill that he will have to take everyday and I hope that helps him. We will have to wait and see what happens. I'm so worried. I'm not sure if ya'll know about his syndrome. It's called vek-hcardio-facial syndrome and this could be one of his symptoms. Jayden is going to have different symptoms as I have because everybody is different in there own way. I hope that everything works out okay and that they help my little man because I love him with all of my heart. Lately, life has been hard, but nobody said it was going to be easy either. It gets frustrating hearing my baby boy get mad so easily. If he can't do something, like get up on the couch like he can then he gets so frustrated. Sometimes I can't take all of his screaming and crying and that frustrates me so much. I try to take it and let him cry, but sometimes it's so hard and I let tears come out to. Sometimes, I tell myself maybe I'm not meant to be a mom, but then I tell myself I've done a pretty damn good job with him and that I shouldn't let myself down, but it's so hard. I know it's motherhood, but everybody is different in there own way of showing it. It doesn't help though that Jayden has also been teething for the past few months and we haven't had much sleep at all. Jayden now has 4 teeth on top and 2 teeth on bottom. His gums are swollen and he's still teething.  Jayden is now on sippy cups I threw away most of his bottles, but two. He uses his sippy cups throughout the day, but in the morning and at night before he goes to bed. I'm starting him on potty training soon. I've got a potty for him; already, but haven't started on it yet because I'm not to sure on what I'm doing. When he first started to walk he thought it was the coolest thing ever. He never really crawls anymore; unless, he's showing off. I'm not ready for him to 2 years of age this year because that's the terrible two's. I hope I can make it through the terrible two's. I should be able to though since I'm doing a good job through the teething part. Jayden loves watching Barney and dancing to the theme song. He also loves watching Sid the Science Kid in the morning that happens to be one of his favorites. Jayden loves all of his toys; especially, his big boy toys. He got a riding fire truck and wagon for christmas. Jayden's wagon is little that came with legos and he loves building. Jayden also got one of those cool tents and tunnel that he can crawl through. He got alot of goodies for Christmas and had a good time with family and friends. I love my little man with all of my heart. He's my favorite boy and I do anything for him because he means that much to me. No matter what happens I'll always be there for him no matter what. He may say some hurtful words to me as he gets older; such as, "I hate you", but those words will never break us. I love you Jayden - I hope that you won't forget that! <3